Dear Blog,

i'm tired today my eyes is closing when i'm typying this.
i went to view my friendster friends and happen to see ur profile. i wanted to send u a msg to tell u how much i miss u but i guess u wont reply nor have any feeling with that msg i send to u so i close that window and post it here. at least that isn't much ppl got my blog ( at least u dun have)

how have u been this few months?

is everything ok?
how's ur exam and project going?
have you started to look around for part time job or have u look thro what u wan to study for U?
or even i get to ask u personally i wont get a very good ans from u.

anyway i wish u all the best!

miss u lots..

Monday "Black"

Monday seem to be always a very busy day. Today happen to see 4 person all black in the same lift when heading for our lunch.

Today my mood same as what we are wearing today = BLACK!

After an tired day home is always the best place after all.. But yet still need to stay for OT luckily not very long hour for today so still can use com for a while longer before i go for my "cards game with Zhou Gong" haha~~ I'm just a crazy girl lol.

that's all for today.. need to take my rest.

Joy" be strong!
i must forget those feeling....

enjoy~~

如果没有你

HEI～我真的好想你 现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里
HEI～我真的好想你
太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话 我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你 没有过去 我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你 如果没有你 我在哪里
又有什么可惜 反正一切来不及 反正没有了自己

HEI～我真的好想你 不知道你现在到底在哪里
HEI～我真的好想你 现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情 不知道你现在到底在哪里
HEI～我真的好想你 太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话 我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你 没有过去 我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你 如果没有你 我在哪里
又有什么可惜 反正一切来不及 反正没有了自己
HEI～我真的好想你 不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否像我一样在想你

This song sing out how i feeling all this time....

tired~

Just came from a play at Singapore National library.

It is the year 2058. Singapore is reeling from a mysterious rain of fire. Buildings have been flattened; scores of people have been killed. In fact, nearly everything in this once pristine and technologically advanced city-state has been destroyed....

I wasn't those type which very in with all this. But overall not bad and this is my first play in my life.

Work load is get more and more stressful. I hear from one person telling me :- "work will always hard but is the people who make you move on..." i think this is quite true. It's time for me to take my leave soon?!

hopefully work will be better. ^^

Count down for my holiday = 39 days


All the best to Jason upcoming exam!~ jia you ok?!

Quote to share:

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but remember... it's never too late!"

"Anyone can start today and make a new ending."

Thanks for the memories!

This story begins with 2 strangers…..

After of 6 month resting finally all my friends are all back to school but all of us in a new and strange environment. It was full of worries and scary (I dun like to talk) when I first step in the class I feel so hard to accept but slowly I found out that they all nice people. Soon we get together very fast and became really good friends and I class got a best teacher Mdm Ong which we love to call her Mummy Ong. 

Time pass fast we came into term 2 things started to change our view changes too. At this time I met him when first know him I feel that he is very funny and love to be late in class. For knowing almost few month finally during one of our outing he send me back and he told me “ I think I fell in love with you” I was so surprise I went fast into the lift and faster close the door. Hope after close fast but he uses his hand to stop the door from closing and he came in and look at me and he kiss me…. I push him away I told him off.. I hate to be in love again I dun wan to get myself hurt again. I hate it so much!!

 
love grow

After the incident, I try to let him know I wasn’t ready for another relationship. He didn’t give up and willing to wait for me until I agreed. Through the time of waiting I felt that I should give a chance and a chance to free myself. Once again I give both a chance, give myself to fall in love again…….

Through all this time of spending with him, from stranger kind to like and to love this process is hard to overcome but we both went through so in my heart i just want to stay with him. i love him lots!

Maybe all this love for you becomes a big stress. No much time for friends and families as I took up most of your time.

Things started to change and as for me I don’t ever feel it at all. (How stupid I’m) until he went off to China for training. At that point of time I really hate to see him leave. But he told me this is another turning point if we would overcome and I let him go. Through the 6 month my life started to change, getting a job and try to get use to life without him, when problems occurs I must find way to solve. I would say life without him is no meaning I really hate those days.

 

first picture taken

Long waited I finally wait until the days he came back. The moment I saw him, my tears started to roll down my check but this is the tear of joy. I miss you so much……..

gift i did for him before he left to oversea

Weeks and months past by after you back to Singapore, I find out that most of the time you been busy working and hardly find time for me and this make me feel really upset due to this we been fighting for this many time. Until our 4^th year anniversary arrival he told me he need to work and this really drive me crazy. But end up he cancel off his work.

That night was my worse night ever. But I just didn’t feel anything at all until the following next day he mention the break up through SMS and from the SMS you told me the feeling between us no more. All this while he been working is because of me.. Want to run away from me. DO I REALLY MAKE YOU SO TIRED? *heart break*

 

Thanks for bringing me joy to my world it may not last but I know there is once I feel love. You use to be my life and mine everything now I got pack up all this and leave it behind. I hate you for leaving me behind but love is self-fish. I hate myself for all those foolish things I did. I know it won’t work between us. Those memories we once had will stay with me until the day I die or perhaps we will just meet at the across road again…

Our story has finally come to an end. This trip is full of memories...
I know I will still miss him but nothing can change the fact. I'm still waiting for that "perhaps"